Sunday, April 8, 2012
Inspiration
My father was given a body and a choice in life. He has made his choices and put his body through EXTREME hardships. My body is not a wasteland and I refuse to do the same. If I was ever inspired to treat my body well, it was last night. I was already a "new me" before this occurrence but I believe life gives you 2 options when something terrible happens to you. You can let it break you, or let it make you. This will make me.
Friday, January 13, 2012
Looking backward & forward to weight loss
I'm one week from my due date and the thought of getting my pre-pregnancy body back is very exciting! I like my baby bump but I busted my butt to fit in that size 6 dress and I want it back! I wanted to summarize my weight loss experience to look back on when times get hard in the future. My highest weight was somewhere slightly above 250 pounds and my lowest has been 160.
Since I started I have learned SO MUCH about myself, food, exercise, pain, and addiction. I was addicted to unhealthy foods, sodas, and an emotional eater. Happy? Celebrate with sugar and fat! Sad? Console myself with sugar and fat. Angry? Get over it with a nice tall glass of sugar and fat. I took the plunge into losing by starting weight watchers with my mom. After learning about food groups and nutritional values and upping my water intake, I began my transformation into vegetarianism which I had wanted to try for years. This made me start to like a much wider variety of foods and I cut out white starches and soda (except diet).
When I started exercising I couldn't sprint for 10 seconds with falling over, unable to breathe. I blamed my asthma, my genetics; I claimed improvement was nearly impossible. Some low points for me was when my husband tried to train me and I was on the ground crying because it was so hard for me, not fitting through turnstiles at my college gym, and barely fitting in an airplane seatbelt. I thought my problem was physical, but the truth is it was mental. My exercise regime started with little workout videos and the elliptical and slowly but surely evolved into serious weight lifting, P90X, laps in the pool, and running on the treadmil and around the neighborhood with my husband.
The truth is weight loss is not about following a specific diet plan, following an exercise plan, taking pills, or joining a certain gym. Weight loss is about a mental transformation. Without a change in mind, a permanent change in body will not happen. Weight loss is about seeing food as a responsibility, not a constant indulgence. Weight loss is about getting out and moving, pushing your limits, pushing past pain. When it hurts, don't stop, push harder. I've lost gym partner after gym partner and the reason is not because they are "too busy" or it's "too hard"; the reason is they were not mentally committed and ready.
Staying healthy and active will forever be a struggle for me but it does get easier and at the end of the day I'm happier fitting into clothes I love and walking around with my head held high. I'm happier to have people stare at me because they think I'm attractive than because I'm so huge they can't help but look. I'm happier going to the doctor and having "textbook blood pressure" than being told I'm at high risk for diabetes. Indulging in food that only brings me happiness until it's over and then suffering guilt, an upset body, and having to drag myself everywhere is NOT worth it. I never kicked the soda habit, but I did make the switch to diet and being my only vice, I'm fine with that. Excited to get back into these habits and this mindset and pass them on to my children. Bring it postpartum body, I'm gonna sweat you back into shape!!
"Change is the essence of life. Be willing to surrender what you are, for what you could become."
"Losing weight is hard, being fat is hard. Chose your hard."
Since I started I have learned SO MUCH about myself, food, exercise, pain, and addiction. I was addicted to unhealthy foods, sodas, and an emotional eater. Happy? Celebrate with sugar and fat! Sad? Console myself with sugar and fat. Angry? Get over it with a nice tall glass of sugar and fat. I took the plunge into losing by starting weight watchers with my mom. After learning about food groups and nutritional values and upping my water intake, I began my transformation into vegetarianism which I had wanted to try for years. This made me start to like a much wider variety of foods and I cut out white starches and soda (except diet).
When I started exercising I couldn't sprint for 10 seconds with falling over, unable to breathe. I blamed my asthma, my genetics; I claimed improvement was nearly impossible. Some low points for me was when my husband tried to train me and I was on the ground crying because it was so hard for me, not fitting through turnstiles at my college gym, and barely fitting in an airplane seatbelt. I thought my problem was physical, but the truth is it was mental. My exercise regime started with little workout videos and the elliptical and slowly but surely evolved into serious weight lifting, P90X, laps in the pool, and running on the treadmil and around the neighborhood with my husband.
The truth is weight loss is not about following a specific diet plan, following an exercise plan, taking pills, or joining a certain gym. Weight loss is about a mental transformation. Without a change in mind, a permanent change in body will not happen. Weight loss is about seeing food as a responsibility, not a constant indulgence. Weight loss is about getting out and moving, pushing your limits, pushing past pain. When it hurts, don't stop, push harder. I've lost gym partner after gym partner and the reason is not because they are "too busy" or it's "too hard"; the reason is they were not mentally committed and ready.
Staying healthy and active will forever be a struggle for me but it does get easier and at the end of the day I'm happier fitting into clothes I love and walking around with my head held high. I'm happier to have people stare at me because they think I'm attractive than because I'm so huge they can't help but look. I'm happier going to the doctor and having "textbook blood pressure" than being told I'm at high risk for diabetes. Indulging in food that only brings me happiness until it's over and then suffering guilt, an upset body, and having to drag myself everywhere is NOT worth it. I never kicked the soda habit, but I did make the switch to diet and being my only vice, I'm fine with that. Excited to get back into these habits and this mindset and pass them on to my children. Bring it postpartum body, I'm gonna sweat you back into shape!!
"Change is the essence of life. Be willing to surrender what you are, for what you could become."
"Losing weight is hard, being fat is hard. Chose your hard."
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Christmas 09 So Far
This Christmas has been AMAZING to say the least. So far I have had a dance performance at a Christmas party, a squadron Christmas party where we won a Ghirraldeli gift basket and $150 in gift cards, RJ has come to visit us, we've seen snow for the first time, and we've been to our first Christmas markets! PHEW! And it's not even Christmas yet! Can't wait for my sister to come Monday! YYAAAYYY!!! I love Christmas...
Sooo my blog wont let me sign in
I came to blogger.com and found out all my posts have been made unavailable to me...here is the link to my old posts to see anything previous to today...and for some reason the Christmas video is also there, but I can't put anymore videos or blogs there...
http://bonnetsgoneeuropean.blogspot.com/
http://bonnetsgoneeuropean.blogspot.com/
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